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I understand that broken people don't connect with anyone so easily

When someone's heart is full of love, he does not accept anyone else

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It's difficult for broken people to reconnect with friends, I've had a recent conversation with someone whose finding hard to move on. In Time helps heal the pain and we gain experience from the past. Everyone changes over time whether it's good or bad, but if you're a good friend, you'll stay and support them through those times, the best you can. Avan: you are a fab storyteller, beautiful as always x

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wow, this is a very good! when I am in a coffee shop my favorite thing to do, when I'm alone, is put one my earpods, watch the other tables and wondering what are they talking about? are they angry or sad? are they happy, in love, interesed in each other? are they being apathic? like me with myself? this is great because it's a diferent point of view about coffee chats: are they hurt, are they gloomily in pain? It's refreshing to find another melancholic person to read in this chaotic life.

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Ah, my daily Avan-supplied dopamine hit. Hope you get a lil dopamine today too! Speaking of that, I’ve noticed a rather sad look in your eyes in your past few insta stories. I hope all is well and that you’ve got enough people in your life that ask “how are you, really?” Much love 💕

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You sound very empathetic. I often hate change too; there are so many landmarks of my past that are gone now, some from childhood and some more recently bc of a dam*ed nightmare hurricane of 2018. I hope your friend is ok. And personally, I'm betting that place's lattes were lovely.

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I feel this. This is the type of conversation I had with my friends about my recent heartbreaks and stuff that’s being going on with me for the past 2 years. It sucks... when memories are blurred and all you can remember is the pain that will eventually come after the happy moments.

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Things changes through time, I'm not the same like I use to be. I'm different now, it wasn't a bad change but only a good change in me, making me better than I was. I lost a lot, WOW!!..oh I lost a lot, and given away things too and taken away from me..stolen. I can relate to this story. Reading it like looking at myself through time up until the present.

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I lost a best friend a while back, and cleaning out our pictures and videos was hell. I still find bits and pieces of them in my Google Drive and think of everything that was and that could have been; sometimes I’ll spend hours wondering who was at fault, but one thing has always remained the same through all that introspection: once upon a time, we used to laugh together for hours and hours, but now I can’t even remember what their laugh sounds like or what their smile looks like.

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They say that silence can be so loud and then the things you are fighting with in your mind are present. That is why I have trouble meditating because the quietness is so loud and I can’t focus.

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you r such a good writer

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Such a familiar ache.

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Your words are tonic. Let's get coffee in my fave little AKL spot soon.

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my heart felt this in her shoe

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I'm gonna for your book to come out

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Excellent, love this, excited for more

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Someone who was very precious to me, with whom we had many beautiful moments and dreams of living.With whom every moment of life is connected but due to time and circumstances it is very painful to come away.And nothing remains, only memories remain.I understand these feelings very well

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