I really liked the third poem, there is a lot of emptiness in it. It feels good that even if someone is far away and famous, they feel a hole in their chest the same way you feel it. Thank you
someplace is calling your name. or maybe that’s just my own voice. fool’s spring is tickling my senses, and i’m mimicking the timid sun. i’m running on prozac, 27’s and vyvanse, waking up at twilight and staying up all night. i’ve been waiting for you. your ava cherry to your bowie, your o’keefe to your stieglitz, abromovic to ulay. ephemera makes things more worthwhile, don’t you think? and i’ve always liked to play with fire: it’s always been a secret desire of mine. my friend once wrote to me, “i hate lukewarm anything, i want it scorching.” i would rather burn than freeze; i would rather burn than feel nothing. i welcome the flame and breathe in the ash. even if we melt, it’s warm for a short while. and i’m always seeking that warmth, that rush. say, should i go get my 31st tattoo? or have sober sex with a stranger? because i hate being bored, and i love keeping busy.
i absolutley love your poems, it gives me a good idea of whats going on inside your mind. also i just want to say that i am a really huge fan, so much that i still sit back and rewatch episodes of vicTORIous !! you are great :)
I like that phrasing “stream of unconsciousness”. I think I’ll have to find a way to work that into an embroidery or house decoration.... or something. I’d like to see that used more often
I love your poems. Just so relatable, like I have thousands of em in my burner. I prefer the animosity but I also want to share it. it's a crazy feeling, chaotic maybe. Cause it's just like a glimpse of my thoughts and I want you (not you specifically) to see them but I also don't want you to react to them. I guess I just want to be seen
Poems
Just in case anyone was wondering, I googled it and yes lizards can get cancer.
“I need to get back doing what it is that made you love me in the first place.
which is being on fire.
I thought a fireplace would do.
that we could tend to those flames together.
carefully poking it while it roared in the safety of the stone hearth of our home
but instead I burnt the fucking house down” WOW BRO
“actually I'm not sure I love chaos
I just don't feel I have another option“
……………..first of all ouch, second of all how dare you?
I really liked the third poem, there is a lot of emptiness in it. It feels good that even if someone is far away and famous, they feel a hole in their chest the same way you feel it. Thank you
dear avan,
someplace is calling your name. or maybe that’s just my own voice. fool’s spring is tickling my senses, and i’m mimicking the timid sun. i’m running on prozac, 27’s and vyvanse, waking up at twilight and staying up all night. i’ve been waiting for you. your ava cherry to your bowie, your o’keefe to your stieglitz, abromovic to ulay. ephemera makes things more worthwhile, don’t you think? and i’ve always liked to play with fire: it’s always been a secret desire of mine. my friend once wrote to me, “i hate lukewarm anything, i want it scorching.” i would rather burn than freeze; i would rather burn than feel nothing. i welcome the flame and breathe in the ash. even if we melt, it’s warm for a short while. and i’m always seeking that warmth, that rush. say, should i go get my 31st tattoo? or have sober sex with a stranger? because i hate being bored, and i love keeping busy.
sincerely,
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i absolutley love your poems, it gives me a good idea of whats going on inside your mind. also i just want to say that i am a really huge fan, so much that i still sit back and rewatch episodes of vicTORIous !! you are great :)
And it doesn't matter if the lizards get cancer or not, because they are a disease in themselves
…your mind is like a raging sea
You expressed a lot of feelings I often have.
Do more of it, it's cool to have a brother in mind.
That stream of unconsciousness gripped my shoulder hard and tucked me gently to bed
I like that phrasing “stream of unconsciousness”. I think I’ll have to find a way to work that into an embroidery or house decoration.... or something. I’d like to see that used more often
Powerful!
by the way, i'm Heart-react #111 :)
"sober sex with strangers and other awful ideas." wow just punch me in the face next time.
I love your poems. Just so relatable, like I have thousands of em in my burner. I prefer the animosity but I also want to share it. it's a crazy feeling, chaotic maybe. Cause it's just like a glimpse of my thoughts and I want you (not you specifically) to see them but I also don't want you to react to them. I guess I just want to be seen
I don't like boring life either